Better

Mr China feels better. He knows that drive is very important, it is a driving force to get things done which is the difference of one another. Belief and Dedication is something that would come along with Drive. At a start, Mr China wakes up every morning blurred and totally reluctant to go to work. The moment he enjoys most is the moment he wakes up, the few seconds of peace that is experienced; prior to memories being loaded in, to remind him of the shit that he is in.

It was at a health examination that he finally have some moments of his own to reflect. He touched down on monday, tue n wed to finalize Exhibition details and off he zoom to Shang Hai on thurs morning and finally back again midnight on monday.

There he realise some way to find back the drive. It is through anger. Anger itself on the purest form is not good. However, controlled anger, an internal furnace maybe good to drive a person and things forward. What he realised that his flame had died in the early period, he had just allow things to run the way it had been, anywhere with walls , he stalled, where in the past, he would have scream and kick even the wall will not move. Now he needs to find back that anger and it is burning again. That clenched fist and teeth, that chair throw and door kicking Mr China is back. He needs to have anger to drive himself forward. Of course , it is not personnel targeted anger, that would be hatred. It is just a drive motivator.

Yesterday after around round of unreasonable discussion , he felt the urge to vent his frustrations, luckily he didnt do it in front of those china balls. But he felt that anger, he screamed and threw a chair across when he got back his office. That is good, he needs that.

he will fight on.